I'm not happy

I think everyone does get an emo day some where between the happy days! Ok, not exactly an emo day, but half emo maybe? I guess graduating is not a good thing after all! In first and second year, what I worried about is just the results, what paper to take next year and that's all!! but now, I am worried about finishing the course =( Just about 19 days to go, I'm offcially a graduand. Better to say, an unemployed. Urghh Thinking about that makes me sad!!

I am kind of worried. Due to the recession last year, I have no confidence at all in obtain a job. I ain't the top straight As' student, I ain't the most active participant in the Uni, I ain't lecturer's favourite student! I am just the normal student sitting at the corner everytime! I told my mom I am staying here, I got my return ticket and definitely hunting for a job and get a PR. Not to sure why is that but that is my plan for now.

Being an unemployed sound really bad already, CFA added stress to me. If I fail, I wasted USD 1700 and wasted all my effort and time and everything else. Even a possibility of getting a job. I'm bad like that urrgh sound disgusting already

I AM SO EMO!! TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!! I need my motivation and concentration! 19 days till finals! 2 months till CFA!!! I neeed to run already, I feel my ass is on fire and I really can't handle that =(

On the other hand, Josie made me yummy yummy pork stew today and buckload of vege! and I was forced to eat asparagus! ok not forced, just um...invited haha

I bought her mooncake :) We had mooncake together and that was it for this year!! Will be like this for next year, the year after and after I am sure, cause who the heck cares bout mooncake festival here? Mid-autumn? Its spring la!! not even Autumn..huhu

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I can't help, I just need to whine. I ate a small piece of cheesecake, but I really feel like eating the whole cake T_T I hope I will not do it......

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =(